Dragons

It’s been a month and a day and I am over it. Talk about fast. Usually after a long relationship I tend to sit around for 6 months and take a break. I’ll probably take a break from the relationship thing. I’ll go on dates, visit friends, and get out and about. When you pop from one relationship to another you forget how to be independent.

The Reformation

The changes are both physical and mental. Ever since the break up I have been going to the gym and working out. I have also shaved off my goatee and got contacts. The other Saturday I went and bought some new clothes and also a brand new phone. I am talking to a guy about learning guitar. I started working on a picture. It was time to change.

Last night I went to Prago to get out of the house and to visit some friends. As I walked in I recognized a familiar face. Then I glanced again and I saw Jen F. and her new guy. At this point I can do one of two things. I could either leave or I could stay and have a good time not worrying about her. I have a thing about Prago. I love that bar… I consider it a home and a place where I can just be myself. When I was in a relationship with Jen F. I tried to get her to come and have a good time with me. I had just driven all the way downtown to hopefully meet up some people and have a good time. I wasn’t about to just put my tail between my legs and not have a good time. I went straight to the bar and ordered a Spanish coffee and went to visit with a friend / employee of the establishment. This friend was the one person I confided in when I was depressed that Jen F. never wanted to hang with me. Looking back maybe I should have broken it of the moment I wasn’t happy… but you never want to give up on love, and I loved her. Anyways I had a huge smile on my face. I talked to her about my changes and then mentioned to her that why ex was in the place. She was surprised at this and thought it was awesome I was at a point where I knew I had to move on and accept that fact that we would never be together again.

This final change had happened just the night before. I was chilling with a friend from out of time. I have to say I had been drinking some… but I was at the Jukebox trying to play some music and a good looking woman came up to me and started talking to me about music. We were both flirts and laughing. We continued to talk a little longer and before she went back to talk to her friends we even gave each other a hug. Two strangers meeting each other converse and trust each other enough to give a hug. My friend Chris reminded me why I was given the nickname dragon… I use to always be able to go up and start a friendly conversation. Polka dot dress girl, dragonfly girl, etc… I use to do this like it was drinking water. It wasn’t until Wednesday that I remembered this. I missed that guy. I missed being friendly and fun.

This was one of the reasons I planned to go out on Thursday night to Prago. So the Prago evening had just begun. I had my Spanish coffee and a few friends around me. I was grooving to the music. I met some other new people. Finally I asked the DJ’s to spin some 80’s into the mix. I asked if he had any Prince… Yep… there it was … “Let’s go crazy” Sweet! As soon as he started spinning the music the place started hopping. People were on the dance floor and having a good time. He started to spin more 80’s and so I was dancing. It was so nice to sing, dance and be merry. I missed that. Soon I was swinging women around and really tearing up the floor. I no longer cared about any situation I was in... That made me super happy. Jen and her guy and the people I knew through Jen left at some point. I said goodbye to all of them. No hard feeling here. I hope at sometime to actually talk to them in the future. They are good people and the truth is they are always at the same places I am at... so I think it’s kind of awkward not talking to them. They know me... no reason not to be civil right?

One of the girls I was dancing with was standing at the bus station. I asked where she lived and she said near Whitworth. I said I needed to go and get something to eat and asked if she wanted to come with me and I would drop her off. We sat in the Satellite Diner and chatted for a bit. Soon it was time to go. I drove her to her place and then went home.

I crashed out on my bed and that was that… What a crazy night, but well worth looking at my setback and a setup for a comeback.

Tonight I am going to the Spokane Symphony with a friend and then going out on the town with another friend. Maybe I can’t live this rock star life forever, but I am glad to be able to do it right now.

I am happy and “the dragon” is back.

Peace.